keep thinkin? should i?

i really don't know what happen to my brain...
just keep thinkin of him...

i don't know why i love you so much...
why my heart still have feelings for you?

i wanted to ask you did you already attach?
but the words just couldn't come out right...
words have been running in my brain for more than a thousand times
it just doesn't feel right...

i'm really tired...
tired of those feelings for you and the stupid idea of being your friend...
being so close to you but couldn't get closer to your heart...
i can't force myself to let go of my hand off you...
please, would you help me?
please be a firm hand on me....
help me move on...
i'm going crazy here...
i'm scared...
scared of one day i'll like those people just go to sleep and never wake up...

I SURRENDER - SANG BY CELINE DION, WORDS FROM MY HEART TO YOU-GM

There’s so much life I’ve left to live
And this fire is burning still
when I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake this solid ground

And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I’m in love with you

‘cause I’d surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We’d make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I’d make you give them all to me
I’d hold u in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I know I can’t survive
Another night away from you
You’re the reason I go on
And now i need to live the truth
Right now there’s no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I’ll live again with love
And no they can’t take that away from me
And they will see

‘cause I’d surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We’d make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I’d make you give them all to me
I’d hold u in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Every night’s getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I’ll swallow my pride and I’ll be alive
Cant you hear my call
I surrender all

right here right now
i give my life to live again
i break free
take me
my everything i surrender all to you
right now i give my life to live again
i break free
take me
my everything i surrender all to you

- Celine Dion -

我不知道这样能走多远?
站在39楼01号房的窗前,望出去可以看到绚丽多彩的夜景
一眼望去..可以看到双峰塔,吉隆坡塔闪耀的灯光,
犹如/有如梦幻的世界在举行大庆典似的闪耀/闪烁着…
有人在我身边说些什么有的没的…我听不进去,都听不进…
我的脑袋不知在想什么,它突然停止思想,空白一片…

Do not stand at my grave and weep

I’m not there I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that blow

I am the diamond glints of snow

I am the sunlight on ripened grain

I am the gentle autumn’s rain

Do not stand at my grave and cry

I am not there I did not die

想太多....
想东想西...
胡思乱想...
该想的不想,该做的不做...
总是在那边想些有的没的...
弄的自己乱糟糟...

想不清

很难受...很难过...
我真的让我自己把自己给毁了
不能怪谁...不能怪任何人...
只能怪自己
我要怎样原谅我自己 我怎么能...
好辛苦...
自己要来的...苦...
还是得熬过去...
努力吧...努力去改变自己
爱你

爱

残留下来的爱情 是苦涩的
是该继续...还是该逃避...
别问...为何不结束它呢
因为我没有勇气去面对...

我不想 也不敢往深崖跃下
简短的结束了这一切...
我宁愿慢慢的 陷入这泥沼
慢慢的 被这一切吞噬...